Why oh why?

Why do I look so mad?

In 2001 I had a kidney transplant and ever since then I've been taking all these anti-rejection medicines.

In the last year or so I have been very depressed and miserable, I always look like I'm mad or something and deep inside myself I am mad and upset and I don't know why.
I've read up on depression and transplants and there seem to be a lot of people that get depressed a few years after they've had their transplant and some are saying it's related to some of the meds that we take, I wonder if that's right?

Look at the picture and how mad I look and this should be a happy day for me because I just got this great gift from my beautiful wife and my mother-in-law, and yes it's a computer.
It's a top of the line computer and I should know computers being that I've been in IT for the last 20 years.
It just saddens me so much to think that I am hurting my wife with this depression thing and everything.

What am I to do? I've already talked about this to my transplant doctors and they recommend me going to a psychologist and that's not something I really want to do.
This is probably paranoia and everything but since moving to the US (from Canada) I don't really trust the medical establishment and insurance companies here and I'm afraid having a psychologist in my medical records will be trouble even if my depression is caused by some of my anti-rejection medications.

What to do?

Laura (my wife) does want me to go and see someone but I don't know.
I just wish I could be happy again.

A new weekend, new vandalism

Vandalism

Well here we are now another weekend and I've been vandalized again, this time it wasn't my car but my home.
It's something real stupid but could've cost me and my family a few thousand dollars if I hadn't caught it.
Someone turned on the water hose and pointed it it at a window, the window was the computer room window. I went into the computer room and there was this weird loud sound and I couldn't figure out what it was, I went to look outside at what the sound could possibly be and the carpet near the window was all went and it sounded like there was an heavy downpour of rain outside.

Great the window's leaking I thought.

So I went and got a towel and and put it so the rain wouldn't come in, my wife asked if it was raining outside and I said yes that it was pouring and it was getting in the computer room and the seal on the window was defective or something.
After I went to the front door and looked outside to see how bad the rain was, it didn't look like it was raining! I then went outside and saw that someone had turned on our front hose on and pointed it at the window. If I hadn't checked the computers before going to bed the water damage to the computers would have been bad and not to mention the cost of the water.

Recap

So let's recap, my car has been broken into twice this year and egged twice and now someone tried to flood one of our rooms on the house.

In the last 3 weeks my car has been broken into, egged and now the house thing. I suspect that someone in my neighborhood doesn't like me.
Is it because I'm a foreigner and that I am French?
Or maybe it's because I'm catholic? I know when we moved down here my wife said that The Baptists and Catholics really didn't like each other, until I moved down here I didn't know what a Baptist was and that I needed to not like them.

Ok, Ok, kidding aside I really am afraid that all the things that have happen recently might be because I am French speaking.
But then it could be teenagers going around causing mischief, who knows! It's just that the damage done is costing me and I really don't know if I am being targeted for any particular reason or if it's just random and deep down it's making me nervous.

The funny thing about all of this is that I live in a nice part of the Dallas area and my brother in law said something how crime was high in the inner city and I replied that I'd feel a lot safer living in the inner city. I've lived in inner cities before and I have to confess that I felt a lot safer living there with the druggies, drug dealers and every other time of... than I do living in the suburb. Here in the suburb you don't know who to look out for...

Crime and Super Heroes

OK so I'm a geek and I know it, my wife tolerates it because she loves me.

Crime

For the second time this year my car has been broken into, the first was exactly a year ago this month.
The first time that they broke into my car they didn't steal anything but this time they stole my satellite radio, I have Sirius if you want to know. It cost $357.17 to get everything fix, 297.69 to get the passenger window replaced and 59.48 to have the satellite radio replaced. I have to say that Sirius were really nice they replaced my stolen radio for less than $60.

Oh yeah my car was also egged this week, second time this year. I wonder who I must've pissed off in the neighborhood?

Super Heroes

Well for the 2nd time in 2 weeks I've been to a comic convention, the Wizard World Texas 2004, I had a pretty good time.
Got a few authographs, Michael Turner, Ethan Van Sciver, Richard Hatch (Battlestar Galactica not the Survivor guy), Josh Howard.
When I went to WW my goal was to get the new Dead@17: Revolution premiere issue with the WW variant cover and I got 2, 1 signed and 1 un-signed. WW was a success!

I was at the convention for 5 hours on the last day and 3 of those were waiting in line to get a couple of my books signed by Michael Turner and Ethan Van Sciver. I didn't go to get any of my Supermans signed by Jim Lee, even though he's like the top artist I'm not a big fan and the lines were long for him.
I tried to go on Saturday but couldn't make it, I suspect the crowds were big on that day because that's what I call general public day where they have the guests that aren't really comic related, this year they had David Goyer (Director of the Blade series starring Wesley Snipes) and Jessica Biel (star of 7th Heaven and Blade: Trinity).

Well that's it for now, I hope that I get better at this and I start putting up stuff on a regular basis.